After years of hard work and countless sacrifices, I’ve finally been offered my dream job working as a broadcast journalist.
Taking the job should have been easy. After all, this is something I’ve worked my whole adult life towards. But accepting my new role has left me sick with anxiety. Welcome to the malicious grasp of Impostor Syndrome.
According to Psychology Today, Imposter Syndrome refers to “high-achieving individuals marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a ‘fraud’“. Essentially, despite evidence to suggest otherwise, people experiencing Impostor Syndrome feel that their success is merely down to luck, or because they have fooled people into believing they are more capable than they really are.
I have always been a self-confident person. I work really hard and as a result I have done well for myself in lots of aspects of my life.
But there’s always a little voice deep down, which tells me I’m not good enough and leaves a knot in my stomach. I try to ignore it, but sometimes that voice takes over.
When I was offered this job, I instantly felt so excited and proud. This was it! All the long hours at uni, the work placements, the personal projects I’d poured my all into had paid off. I did it. I was in.
But overnight my euphoria was replaced with dread and panic. The little voice in my head went into overdrive, telling me I was fooling myself and that I would never be able to do this. “Your filming skills are shit,” the voice muttered. “You’ll never cope with the demands of a real newsroom,” it scoffed. “Who the fuck do you think you are?” it accused.
This isn’t the first time I’ve felt this way. Whether it was completing assessments as part of my degree, or being asked to do a new task at work, my life has been punctuated with those tight chest, nervous stomach moments.
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Chances are you’ve felt this way too. With all the pressures of modern living and social media, it’s easy for it all to get on top of us sometimes.
But what you must remember is this: if someone is putting their faith in you then trust me, you’ve earned it. We all deserve to be happy and for our hard work to work out.
There is no cure for Impostor Syndrome. But by believing in yourself you- and I- can quiet those doubting voices and enjoy whatever new challenges life throws our way.